Breaking someones heart is the worst feeling in the world. Some girls boast of being heartbreakers. I don't think they've actually broken someones heart. It's not something to boast about. Breaking someones heart is harder still if you care about the person. And worse still if you loved them. I have recently gained the title of heartbreaker. It makes me feel like I don't deserve to be happy. I want to heal the wounds I've made. I want to be friends again. But I don't think it's what he wants, and it hurts. But maybe I deserve it. Maybe this is karma coming back around to get me. But as much as it hurts to break someones heart and as much as it hurts to think he doesn't want to be my friend, I know I made the right decision. I've changed. I feel like I've said that a million times in the past month. But I don't know how else to explain it. I'm still figuring things out myself.
I just re-read this post, and I'm not sure it makes a lot of sense. But the point I was trying to get across is that I've earned the title of heartbreaker, and I'm not proud of it.
