Breaking someones heart is the worst feeling in the world. Some girls boast of being heartbreakers. I don't think they've actually broken someones heart. It's not something to boast about. Breaking someones heart is harder still if you care about the person. And worse still if you loved them. I have recently gained the title of heartbreaker. It makes me feel like I don't deserve to be happy. I want to heal the wounds I've made. I want to be friends again. But I don't think it's what he wants, and it hurts. But maybe I deserve it. Maybe this is karma coming back around to get me. But as much as it hurts to break someones heart and as much as it hurts to think he doesn't want to be my friend, I know I made the right decision. I've changed. I feel like I've said that a million times in the past month. But I don't know how else to explain it. I'm still figuring things out myself.
I just re-read this post, and I'm not sure it makes a lot of sense. But the point I was trying to get across is that I've earned the title of heartbreaker, and I'm not proud of it.
February 8, 2010 at 10:15 PM
I am sorry to hear it, but sometimes it is necessary. Unfortunate, but necessary. I hope things get better for you.
March 1, 2010 at 8:52 AM
I'm so proud of you!
March 5, 2010 at 9:11 PM
Oh, I am so sorry. I hate that feeling. When something happens like this, I always pray that everyone involved can find some sort of peace. I hope things get better for you!!
March 23, 2010 at 9:09 PM
My dear friend Jordan,
I understand your pain and am sorry to hear that you have gone through such an ordeal. Nobody deserves to feel that way. Please note that you DO deserve to be happy and that there are many many people that love you and hope very much that you will be happy again soon. Kudo's for recognizing what needed to be done and for doing it. Not always easy to see and definitely not always easy to do. But you did it! I am proud to call you friend J.